2011-09-11T22:23:00.002-04:00

Motherhood can be so overwhelming. Sometimes I drown in the sea of my child's cries and sibling rivalry. Once the day ends and they sail off to slumberland. Silence seeps in around me. I cant hear. I cant see. Cant feel... nothing. I want to feel peace. But I hear restless and touch alone. Nerves running thin. Dripping. Nothing comforts me. Nothing but darkness as it drapes me in sleep.

2011-08-22T23:27:00.001-04:00

Was sitting outside work this morning. I heard birds and looked up at the top of the salon... and there were 4 birds sitting in a row! They were just chattering away. Gossiping about me, most likely! What do you think they were saying?

2011-08-15T06:00:00.003-04:00

I decided it was time to start writing a blog instead of reading so many. Journal writing is therapy and this mama needs some therapy!

I will tell you right now... if grammar and punctuation drive you nuts... run now! In high school and college I was a stickler on it. Now not so much. I admit when I write I leave out ' and , -sorry. I will be honest & just be myself when I write.

Im a mama to 2 beautiful kids. Maddox who will be 4 in November and Jolie who will be 8 in December. Maddox will be called Maddi or Madd. Jolie will be called Jojo. Im a cosmetologist. One day I will be a makeup artist. There just isnt much of a career for it in the area I live. I work at a Holiday Hair. I love my coworkers on most days. At the moment, the kids and I are living with my parents. Until I can afford to get our own place. I just got engaged to my son's father, Brent. Which is a conflict with my family. He is currently incarcerated in a WV prison. But dont let that build a negative opinion of us. Everyone makes mistakes. I sure have! Im always the first one to admit it! Im a recovering drug addict with 3 years in a clean life. Im a very spiritual person. Buddhism & Christianity are a huge influence on my life. Im a book worm and words are my oxygen. Music and art are important to me.

I will try to update this as much as I can. But I am known to disappear into my own solitude for days.

Mindful Mama